OH NO NOT MY........

DJ, HE IS SICK AND HE NEVER GETS SICK,
HE HAS BEEN IN BED SINCE WEDS AFTERNOON.
I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM. I GUESS HIS FRIENDS
ARE MISSING HIM BECAUSE HIS CELL NEVER
STOPS RINGING. ALL THOUGH THAT'S ONE OF
THE THINGS THAT BOTHERS ME ABOUT KIDS
& CELLS, THEIR FRIENDS NEVER SEEM TO CALL
THE HOUSE PHONE, HEAVEN FORBID THEY MUST
SPEAK TO A PARENT. I HAVE OTHER ISSUES ABOUT
KIDS AND CELLS, BUT I WON'T SPEAK OF THEM NOW.
I AM JUST HOPING DJ FEELS BETTER & BACK
TO HIMSELF SOON, VERY SOON.

2ND TIME AROUND

DURING THE WEEK TOMMY HAD HIS 2ND WRESTLING MATCH AND LETS JUST SAY
HIS GAINING WRESTLING ABILITY.
LIKE I TELL TOMMY, HIS TIME WILL COME.

I CAN NOT TELL YOU HOW MANY TIMES HE STOLE....

THAT BASKET BALL TODAY . TOMMY STOLE THAT BALL SO MANY
TIMES IN TODAY'S GAME WE ACTUALLY LOST COUNT.
TOMMY PLAYED SO HARD, HIS WHOLE TEAM DID.
IT NEVER STOPS TO SURPRISE ME HOW NERVE RACKING A BOYS
BASKET BALL GAME CAN GET, AND TODAY WAS NO EXCEPTION.
I DON'T REMEMBER EVER HEARING THAT GYM SO LOUD
IN ALL THE 8 YRS I HAVE BEEN GOING THERE. THIS GAME
WAS SO ACTION PACKED. LOADED WITH LOTS OF BALL
STEALING, INTERCEPTING PASSES,
FOILING ANOTHERS BASKET ATTEMPT, TRIPPING,
ANKLE KICKING, HOLDING ON TO THAT BALL FOR
DEAR LIFE WHEN AN OPPONENT IS TRYING TO
RIP IT OUT OF YOUR HANDS...
OH MAN, IT WAS ON.
THOUGH IT WAS VERY CLOSE GAME, TOMMY'S TEAM
WON AND NOW ARE 8 and 0, WITH 2 MORE GAMES TO
THE END OF THE SEASON. LIKE I HAVE SAID BEFORE,
THANK GOODNESS FOR THE ABILITY
TO GET AGGRESSIVE FOR THE GAME.
***WHAT SPORTS DO FOR TOMMY,
I WISH I COULD BOTTLE UP AND
PASS ON TO EVERY KID I KNOW***

Just...

Just leaves me feeling kinda sad & empty
Just wondering how & why
Just know things have to turn around
Just makes me ache
Just makes me think
Just never leaving my thoughts
Just always lingering on
Just know my heart is full of anticipation
Just know my heart is full of love
Just know my heart is always eager
Just know I am always here
Just know I love you
Just know it is forever true
Just know my heart is always with you.

P.S.N.

HIS TIME HAS COME

AND HE IS SO EXCITED.
THOMAS HAS HIS FIRST OFFICIAL WRESTLING MATCH
ON FEB 24, THOMAS IS FEELING BECAUSE IT IS ON MY BIRTHDAY,
THE DAY WILL BE A "LUCKY" DAY FOR HIM FOR SURE.
ALONG WITH GENTLE TALKS ABOUT IF HE DOESN'T WIN THE MATCH, HOW HE SHOULD JUST SHAKE HANDS WITH HIS OPPONENT & SAY SOMETHING LIKE, GOOD MATCH. HE CAN WALK WAY FEELING PROUD OF HIMSELF KNOWING... WOW, I JUST HAD MY FIRST SCHOOL TEAM WRESTLING MATCH, & NEXT TIME MIGHT BE MY TIME. THOMAS, IF YOU THINK ABOUT THE MATCH YOU WILL LEARN SOMETHING FOR YOUR NEXT MATCH. ALWAYS REMEMBER THERE IS NO ROOM FOR SORE LOSERS OF ANY KIND IN SPORTS. OVER & OVER AGAIN, UNTIL HE GIVES ME THE LOOK,WHICH I KNOW MEANS HE TOTALLY GETS IT. OK NOW, I WILL SPEND FROM TODAY ON WITH MY FINGERS CROSSED, PRAYING THAT THE 24TH IS AN EXCELLENT DAY FOR MY SON.
P.S. THIS YOUNG BOY IS VERY PROUD OF HIMSELF FOR MAKING THE SCHOOL TEAM,
YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

MY SECOND BORN .

AH, MY SON DJ IS ABSOLUTELY THE MOST AMAZING 15 YR OLD I KNOW. HE JUST SURPRISES ME ALL THE TIME WITH THE MANY THINGS HE HAS KNOWLEDGE OF & or HE KNOWS HOW TO DO. REAL ESTATE, HE CAN PRICE A CONDO OUT EAST OR A HOME IN TEXAS. CAR'S...IT DRIVES PAST US, HE KNOWS THE MAKE, MODEL YR. AND PRICE RANGE. FROM HOME MADE ALFREDO SAUCE TO CKING THE OIL, WINDOW WASHER FLUID, GAS, ANTI-FREEZE, TIRE PRESSURE. FROM SNOW BLOWING THE DRIVE WAY TO PUMPING GAS, WHATS THAT YOU ASK...LANDSCAPING YES, THIS YOUNG MAN HAS SOME WONDERFUL IDEAS & DJ CAN GET THE JOB CAN DONE. YOU NAME IT & THIS KID PRETTY MUCH HAS IT COVERED. BEAUTIFUL BRIGHT BLUE EYES, ALWAYS A BIG SMILE, DRESSED CLEAN & NEAT ALL THE TIME, A BIG HEART, MANY FRIENDS, AND FUNNY, AH HE CAN GET YOU TO LAUGH. A KINDNESS ABOUT HIM THAT IS VERY COMFORTING. CKING OUT COLLEGES, ALREADY EXCITED ABOUT HIS DAYS AHEAD.
I AM THINKING...COLLEGE ALREADY, OH NO, I REMEMBER WHEN SONNY WENT OFF TO COLLEGE I WASN'T PREPARED FOR IT AT ALL. NOT THAT IT MEANS DJ GOING OFF WILL MEAN ANY LESS, I JUST KNOW A LITTLE BIT AHEAD OF TIME THAT I WILL BE CRYING FOR SEVERAL WKS AND AFTER EVERY HOME VISIT TILL ABOUT THE 4TH YR. I DID KNOW THINGS WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME BUT I DIDN'T KNOW TO WHAT EXTENT THAT ACTUALLY MEANT. ON A DAILY BASIS I COULD NOT IMAGINE A LIFE WITHOUT SONNY & I CAN NOT IMAGINE A LIFE WITH OUT DJ.

AFTER SERIOUSLY CKING

THE PRICE RANGE OF " THE WONDERFUL DYSON VACUUM "
I THINK MAYBE I DONT REALLY "HAVE TO HAVE & or ABSOULTY NEED"
THIS BEAUTIFUL CLEANING MACHINE....
I DON'T KNOW....MAYBE IN THE SPRING.....
WE WILL SEE.

my last lil one ...........(who is 12 right now)

he rocks on the basketball court..
he son lights that court up...
he will look you in the face and steal
that ball right away from you...
he just comes outta no where & catches that pass...
he takes that finger crossin' shot and Swish IT goes IN.


THANK GOODNESS FOR SPORTS AND THE ABILITY TO GET AGGRESSIVE FOR THE GAME.

TAKE MY BREATH AWAY.....

THOMAS IS NOW ON THE SCHOOL WRESTLING TEAM. AND HE LOVES IT.
A FEW BASKET BALL GAMES WERE PRETTY TOUGH ON HIS LEGS BECAUSE OF THE START OF WRESTLING TRAINING.
THE FIRST WEEK OR SO, THOMAS CAME HOME FROM WRESTLING PRACTICE (WHICH IS EVERY DAY AFTER SCHOOL) TELLING ME ALL ABOUT THE DIFFERENT HOLDS, ROLLS, PINS AND MORE, MUCH MORE...
BUT THE KICKER WAS WHEN HE SAID TO ME,
"MOM REMEMBER WHEN WE WENT TO SONNY'S STATE TROOPER GRADUATION AND THEY SHOWED US ALL THE STUFF THEY HAD TO LEARN TO GRADUATE THE ACADEMY".
OF COURSE I DO, I REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY.
I STILL CARRY THAT PROUD STRONG FEELING I HELD THAT DAY.
YOUR BIG BROTHER WAS ONCE MOMMY'S BABY AND LOOK AT HIM NOW, HE HAS ACCOMPLISHED MANY THINGS IN HIS LIFE, BUT MOST OF ALL HE IS A GOOD PERSON."
WELL THOMAS REPLIED "MOM THAT IS JUST WHAT WRESTLING IS LIKE, THEY HAVE US DOING THESE ARMY CRAWLS, ALL KINDS OF STUFF, MY LEGS FEEL LIKE THEY ARE GOING TO FALL OFF, REALLY MOM THEY FEEL LIKE THEY ARE GONNA FALL OFF.
"BUT I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TRYING TO DO MOM".
REALLY TOMMY WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO DO ?
"MOM, SONNY'S ACADEMY CLASS STARTED WITH 140 SOMETHING GUYS AND ONLY 40 SOMETHING GRADUATED...( I KNEW SONNY'S ACADEMY GRADUATION LEFT A HUGE IMPRESSION ON THOMAS, BUT I HAD NO IDEA HE REMEMBERED THE CLASS SIZE ) CAUSE THEY WERE HARD & TOUGH ON THEM TRYING TO GET RID OF THE GUYS WHO COULDN'T MAKE IT, THAT'S WHAT MY WRESTLING COACH IS LIKE, HE IS TRYING TO GET RID OF THE KIDS WHO AREN'T GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH... BUT NOT ME, THEY WON'T GET RID OF ME . I AM STRONG AND TOUGH LIKE MY BIG BROTHER AND I AM GONNA MAKE IT."
OH MY THOMAS I AM SO PROUD OF YOU,
"MOM ARE YOU AS PROUD OF ME AS YOU ARE SONNY" (NOW I AM ALL CHOCKED UP AND TRYING TO HIDE IT)
"THOMAS OF COURSE I AM, I AM SO VERY PROUD OF YOU,
TOMMY IT ISN'T ALWAYS THE THINGS YOU DO...
BUT WHO YOU ARE AND WHO YOU WILL BECOME, THAT MAKE MOM THE PROUDEST.
EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY I AM AND WILL ALWAYS BE PROUD OF YOU AND BOTH YOUR BROTHERS FOR WHO THE EACH OF YOU ARE.
NEVER DOUBT IT, BECAUSE IT WILL ALWAYS BE TRUE."
NOW COME HERE AND GIVE ME A BIG HUG.
WHEN I THINK OF THIS CONVERSATION I GET A LITTLE EMOTIONAL, AND I KNOW I WILL REMEMBER THIS TALK WELL INTO MY ROCKING' CHAIR DAYS.
NOW HERE'S A CHUCKLE....
OH AND MOM THERE IS ONE GIRL ON OUR WRESTLING TEAM, WHY WOULD A GIRL WANT TO WRESTLE, SHES IS THE ONLY GIRL, OH MAN I HAVE TO ASK THE COACH IF WE HAVE TO GO EASY ON HER ...
IS THAT...BECAUSE SHE'S A GIRL THING GOING TO HAPPEN HERE, CAUSE IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR.... OH MAN .